6 weeks in...

Just a short blog tonight... So I'm almost at the end of my 6th week of starting to work out consistently. For 6 weeks I have continuously been in pain. My body hurts ALL over. Sometimes I think I'm sick because it just hurts so much. I start to think that this can't be normal, but how do I know what normal is? I've never worked out like this in my life, and I'm 30! Of course it is going to suck and be hard. Every day I think it is just so much easier to let it go and just be big, but I know that I don't want that. As much as as I sometimes think I want to give up, I want more to be able to live life in a way that my weight hasn't let me. I'm still alive after 6 weeks, and I can and will keep trying.

Tonight was my last night of my free month of Camp Gladiator, and this week was tough! I cannot believe how much we jump around. My knees hate me. I kind of hate them for sucking so much, but I suppose that is my fault for getting fat! I really wish I had like 15 or 20 pounds to lose. The sad part is that I need to lose what most of you weigh.. plus more! It almost feels impossible.. almost.

Well, I'm going to have to get use to being in pain. I signed up for 6 months of Camp Gladiator. WHAT?! I know.. I'm surprised myself. In the beginning, I honestly did not think I would. But I need to be told what to do. I need someone push me. I'm not strong enough to do it on my own yet.

Okay.. that's all I've got tonight. I'm exhausted. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. Oh! My black bean burgers turned out pretty well! I'll make them again for sure.