Umm..

It's too hard..
It's too hot..
I won't succeed..
I want to be able to drink and eat with my friends..
I don't want to wake up early..
I don't love my trainer..
I'm too tired..
I'm too big..
I don't know exactly what to do..
I don't have time..
Jimmy eats whatever he wants..

What are these? These are my excuses. Excuses for not wanting to eat healthy.. for not wanting to be as active as I need to be. Actually sitting down and writing them down makes them seem trivial and silly.

My blog is my sense of accountability, and as you can see... I have not been blogging lately. I have not been eating terribly, but I have not been being very strict on myself, and I definitely have not been as active as I need to be. The truth is.. trying to lose weight totally sucks, and it is really frustrating that it takes so long. But! But.. it also totally sucks being overweight. I saw something on tumblr the other day that said "losing weight is hard. Being overweight is hard. Pick you hard." That saying has really stuck with me because it could not be more true.

A lot of people have mentioned that they have not seen me blog lately. It really means so much to me that you all read my blog and put up with my craziness! I hope you will continue to read as I continue to struggle. Knowing you guys read is what keeps me honest. I have just been putting off saying that I'm not perfect, and that this is hard for me.

But that's all I'm going to say about all of that. Some things you should know - I want to be able to jog a 5K. That's my newest goal! I also have some Tech football tshirts that I bought a while ago that don't fit me well. I want to be able to wear them by the end of football season. Those are small, but I think attainable goals, and I'm super excited about them. I don't know if I will sign up for a 5K... the thought of that really scares me!

Some totally random things:

- If I ever have kids, I'm going to be that really awesome/embarrassing parent that still listens to pop music and rap. So.. future potential child, you're welcome, and I'm sorry. I thought by the age of 31 I would have outgrown this, but apparently not.

- It is now September, and I do not care that it is still 100F degrees, it is fall in my mind, and that means pumpkin everything.

- It is exactly 3 months until +Jimmy Ho and I see Justin Timberlake, and I can't even tell you how excited I am. On a related know, Drake is going to be on the new JT album that comes out next month. I'm dying.

- Both of my dogs are now 8! I'm reassured that Jimmy and I can keep something alive and well for that amount of time.

- Jimmy and I have completely cleaned out our entire house over this past week. We have sold and donated so many things! We have a FUNd envelope that we are putting the money we make from stuff we sell. It has almost $600 in it!!

- College football started last weekend! Tech and UT won! It was a happy weekend in the Ho home. Oh.. and btw - how hot is Kliff Kingsbury? In that.. looks like he could be druggie, like in a James Franco kinda way, but whatevs, love it!

- NFL officially starts tonight! Last year I won our fantasy football league, and the Commissioner of our league totally hates for me for it and thinks Jimmy managed my team. I'm just awesome!

- I had some issues with my eye. I had to go to my doctor before being referred to a specialist. I ended up having to see the nurse practitioner because my doctor had no open appointments. I think the nurse practitioner thought I might have a tumor or something. She was pretty freaked out, and took me off work until I could see a specialist. Turns out it may just be tension headaches? My eyes are fine. It was a scary few days though.

Ok.. that's all I've got tonight. Tomorrow is Friday!!!! Have a good weekend, y'all.