Sh*t's Getting Real...

A month or so ago +Jimmy Ho talked about entering a 5K in our area because he thought maybe he could win it. Jimmy does not normally like short distance runs, but he thought "why not?" The 5K was this morning, and HE WON! He came in first overall. I was really proud of him. He got a cool wood carved trophy. Check him out!

There were a lot of booths around with everything from banks to drug free councils, local farms, and exercise programs. While Jimmy was running I decided to look around. There was a Camp Gladiator booth. For those of you who haven't heard of Camp Gladiator, it is a boot camp type workout that is apparently in many states and continues to grow. Some of my friends have done it, and all of them had good things to say about it. I was very intimidated to go to to the Camp Gladiator booth because I am not in good shape (yet!), and the 2 guys (yeah guys..) that were working the booth were of course super athletic and muscly. As I walked over all I could think was "please don't laugh at me and please don't judge me." They both greeted me as I walked under the tent. I couldn't keep it in any longer. I blurted out "so would I die?" It was a legitimate question! They immediately assured me that I would not die. Camp Gladiator offers workouts at different levels so people of all fitness levels can attend. They were both very nice even if they were judging me on the inside. They had a wheel that you could spin to win free crap. Who doesn't like to spin a wheel?! I'm going to blame The Price is Right and Wheel of Fortune. But whatever, I SPUN! And can you believe I WON a month of FREE Camp Gladiator (a $160 value). OMG! I never win anything. I feel like I'm meant to do this. I'm meant to change. My first day is Tuesday. I'm really scared.

Then something else that was awesome happened. Because Jimmy won the 5K, he also won a free month of Camp Gladiator!!! I was conflicted when I found out that Jimmy won too. Let me explain... (and yes, I already told Jimmy this). Jimmy helps me do everything. Jimmy is amazing, and his is my rock. I thought if he went to Camp Gladiator, he would be like a crutch. I'm afraid with him there I will be embarrassed to struggle and embarrassed to fail. He is so strong, and I am just not there yet. I know he will still love me no matter what, but I was looking forward to facing this challenge on my own. Jimmy and I have decided not to workout next to each other. I am going to try to pretend that he isn't even there. I am doing this for him because I want to be a better person for him, but I'm mainly doing this for myself. I want it for me, and I don't think I've ever really wanted it for me before. I want to be healthy so I can live my life and do amazing things. I am not letting this weight hold me down anymore. With that said... 

I was told by the trainer that I would need a mat and 5lb dumbbells to get started. We went to Academy this afternoon to get dumbbells for both of us. While we were there we decided to look at bikes again. The other day at Wal-Mart when I tried to ride a bike I just could not do it. I tried, but I was so scared I was going to fall or that someone would see me and laugh that I just couldn't. Today at Academy, I wanted to try again. I freaking rode a bike!!!!! I know that it is kind of pathetic that I'm excited I was able to ride a bike, but I really did not think I could. I'm learning that I "can't" do things because I keep telling myself I can't do them, and I'm scared. The truth is, I can do things! Yeah.. it is going to be hard and uncomfortable. It is going to flat out suck sometimes. But I was so happy and proud of myself after I rode that bike. I am going to try to let go of my fears and just DO.

Today really was an amazing day. Not going to lie, I am terrified. I am scared of this change, and I am scared I will fail. Maybe I'm even more scared of succeeding. Today was overwhelming, in a good way. I've already committed to walking at least a mile 4x a week. Think I can do that AND Camp Gladiator? Time will tell.