July 15th

I weighed this morning, and it was not a happy time. You guys... I gained 4 pounds. GAINED. 4. POUNDS. I was devastated, but I was not surprised. Remember in my last post when I said I was eating everything in the world. That lasted for the next week. I made multiple bad food choices, and that's what I get.

I was really upset with myself and feeling down. I texted a friend who is one of my biggest supporters. I told her that I had gained, that I felt terrible, and that I did not want to blog about it. She told me that I should blog about it and reminded me that one of my goals with my blog is to be accountable. How could I argue with that? She was right. So here I am.. sad! My friend told me to stop feeling guilty and to do something active during my lunch. I took her advice, and during lunch I did yoga. And you know what? I felt better.

I did not sleep well last night so I did not get up and go to Camp Gladiator this morning. I thought about going tonight even after doing yoga, but then thought my mat and weights were in Jimmy's car. So I texted my friend from CG, and she said she and some of the other CG girls were going to a Body Combat class that was free and asked me to go. Normally, when I don't know what I'm getting myself into, I say no, but I felt like I should say yes. I felt like I needed to kick my own ass after the last week.

I assumed it would be like a self defense class. When I walked in, I felt like I was walking into my own personal nightmare! It was a huge class full of all skinny girls and there were mirrors. There was a trainer at the front with a headset on. I've never been to a class like this. I immediately wanted to leave, but I rode with one of my friends, and I was stuck! Well.. gotta suck it up. I immediately knew I was in over my head. Time to get started. Off we go.. we are jumping around.. kicking, throwing punches. Watch a video of it here. It is high intensity cardio, and it lasted an HOUR! If we got a break, it was less than 30 seconds, and there were only like 3 of them. But you know what, I DID IT! I was not able to go as fast as everyone the entire time, but I did not have to stop, and I kept moving. It was actually kind of fun, and the hour went by pretty quickly. I sweat SO much. I haven't showered yet, and I'm pretty sure I smell terrible. :) Even though it was a ton of cardio, we punched so much and did lunges and squats so it was also strength training. I felt like I was successful in kicking my ass. There were 4 trainers; each one did a 15 minute segment of the exercise. After we were done, 2 of the trainers told me that I did I great job. They were probably just surprised to see a fatty jump around for an hour. I know I was surprised! One of them was like "you just looked so happy!" Happy?! Are you kidding? I guess I'm glad I looked happy because I didn't FEEL happy. Because a friend brought us, we all get 2 free weeks. I think we are going back on Thursday. EEK.

I've had a really good food day. I had two eggs with pico this morning, a salad with corn, black beans, pico and salsa for lunch, and for dinner we had freakin vegans on corn tortillas. Maybe I needed the 4 pound weight gain to kick myself into gear.

So.. remember how I said I was going to start keeping a journal of the things I eat, exercise I do, my weight and measurements? BOOM. I also did this today - (btw - the letters are GOLD. I'm super into black and gold lately.)

And with that.. the journey continues.